Guilt

This is going to seem a little strange, but I feel guilty for not writing about baby #2 as often as I write about Nikos. In fact, I sometimes even forget that I am pregnant, despite my ever-increasing belly! Gus and I are both first-borns, but I think I've started to understand some of the issues that younger siblings have. And I don't want to be "that parent" who plays favorites, or who never buys anything new for the younger child because baby #1 already has everything. You know? I am definitely rambling here, but it's something that bothers me lately.

In a way, this is sort of a testament to how easy my pregnancy has been so far (*knock on wood!*). I certainly wouldn't be able to forget about it if I were having difficulties! Instead, it's been smooth sailing. I had very, very mild "afternoon sickness" for only a short while, and it hardly affected my appetite at all. I haven't had any instances of spotting or cramping-- nothing that would make me panic and call the doctor (unlike last time). In fact, I just have a gut feeling that this baby is very strong and resilient... both excellent qualities! So instead of focusing on what's happening in my belly, I've been kept distracted by the constant changes Nikos has been going through, right before my eyes. It doesn't mean that I care about baby #2 any less... it just means that I have less to worry about than last time, and more to worry about with Nikos (who gets into EVERYTHING). I trust that he or she is cooking along in there, right on schedule, and I just go about my daily life!

That being said, though, I cannot WAIT to see his or her little face in 10 more days. I think that will help make things more "real." And I can't wait to decorate the other bedroom. I hope these next 10 days pass quickly!